its 2.34am n im leaving for HK in less than hmm… 24hours^^?

im like.. 90% done packing my n my B’s stuff noe=.=” annoyed sangat~

stil trying to tink of anything i nid to pack…

here’s my thank u list^^~

Mr & Mrs Foong - for sponsoring de trip n pocket monies^^

Foong jr. (a.k.a. my B) - for bringing me along^^

Bosco Lam (a.k.a. red bean) - for sheltering us during de 15days-trip^^

Flora Cheung - *althou i hvnt met her in person* for helping preping our arrival^^

Adeleen - for booking de flight tickets n buying souvenirs from Him Heang^^

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soooo excited to go HK since i hv not leave de country b4^^” *paisehnya~*

hope everything goes smoothly n everyone enjoys^^

oh yea.. i dint set my mobile to roaming cuz….. de deposite payment is RM300 per line!!!

so jz bear with it la k~ mayb wil buy a local number??? hmm… will see then! but im starting to hv that feeling that i might get lost in the mist of downtown Hong Kong=.=”… okay.. so u see, this is de new me my B discovered… always bound with negative predictions… that is like 80% wrong n totally dramatic~

ahahaha… =.=” he mayb right~

by the way… i tagged along wit B n his Tasmanian gang that came to Malaysia recently n got my little cute feet stung by this reli reli reli reli poison ant(x.X) n my foot is like HUGE!!! so… end of story??? went to doctor n get an anti-inflammatory injection *a very very thick needle poke into my soft fleshy arm* n ate 6 tablets of meds evrytime after meal! 6 times 3 equals 18!!!

but moral of the story… eat de meds un-according to time n let de foot rot-.-”

oh ya.. fail to mention~ i got my blood tested for Thalaseamia=.=” *FYI Thalaseamia = Mediterranean Anemia* cz my B has it so i got myself tested… de 1st report came out im suspected for Thalaseamia or Iron Defieciency… so im on for de 2nd confirmation test… total 2 fat needles poking in my arms AGAIN to draw out stupid anemic blood… *how ironic izit that im anemic n they’re still drawing blood for tests???*

klah… its up til here cz im going oi~ 2mr’s 3.10pm *if not mistaken* plane~ will update once im free^^

bye

i had a surprise…

it is a shock… definitely one shock of my life…

I’m sorry if i make things so personal and probably too dramatic but,

i dun seem to understand y she can encourage u to do so…

its not a bad thing, merely jz a puncture but i tink i had a shock..

so,

i’m asking for a lil time…. spare me alil of ur time… let me digest…

its not a big thing, i noe…

it jz… u’re moving on with ur life there but i tink i’m kinda stuck here…

u have ur gangs, ur day-out, functions, events, celebration…

= i’m here =

right where u left me…

mayb im jz wondering how’d u move on without me…

probably thats wat im having now…

questions…

i noe,

if u get to choose, u wud like be here more than everywhere else in the world but…

mayb it jz seem to be unfair that im the only one left here…

as if my life stops when u leave…

n it only revolves around u…

yes… my life only revolves around you…

我想，在外看起来很充实的生活，其实我的生命已暂停……

直到你回到我身边……

都会一直停下去……

为什么还放不下你的离开……

这样下去会很痛……我也知道……

很想一昧地逞强,又能怎样……

当然也明白我常将事情变得复杂^^

天生的吧

但放心吧……

我是这世界上……最后一个逼你的人

也是第一个愿意尝试去接受一切一切的人

因为我爱你

there are the days…

the days that i found myself missing you terribly…

im happy that u hv a great life there, at least u hv ur own frens all the time…

but, i can barely screen thru ur pictures at FB… not more than 5..

it makes me feel terribly pain… terribly…

i miss u… but who can be here for me…

can i stop this heartache…

its not the 300 Spartans, u see…

adding this piece of 1,500, it wud b my 3,000 words… but honestly, this 1,500 is slightly out of my capacity…

i tink it jz coincide with my hormonic days^^ that is wat makes me feel so tired… to write the 1st 500 is as difficult as it is already… wat about the next 1,000?

im questioning myself, how much can i help u? but in the end, all i nid is ur voice…

All i need is your voice…

then i know i can, finish the 1,000 remaining words…

i noe u wont be seeing this^^, thats y i wrote this down… 1,500 isnt my burden… neither the next 1,500 or the next next 1,500…

its how much i love u… accumulated until now? its 2,000^^

incredible on top doesnt include the fact that im driving car these days!

(-.-lll

Incredibly GOOD songs that i found out recently:

*sorry-lah, i noe im extremely outdated (x.x)@*

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NUMBER 1 fav SONG: The Script - The Man Who Cant Be Moved

Coldplay - Yellow

Enya - Now We are Free (Gladiator OST)

Naruto OST - Sadness and Sorrow

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*Heart* SONGS (^^)b

Day after day, im still working here… i hv no idea wat im gonna do later in my life cz everything seems so misty^^ still far… yet to b decide…

anyway, the weather turn cold these days…iLUVrain desu~ oni besides when it rains on the time i nid to go to work or go home from work… I love rain when im home^^ in my warm n cozy bed…

oh yea… i finally get to clean up the pile of mess on my bed… its been centuries since i vowed  to clean it up! n i also tidy up my closet! it was a huge project but i manage to get it done while watching Shrek 1^^ LOVeeeee Shrek!!! however, i clear up a big trash bag of unuse clothes… some I oni worn for once or twice.. but its over my age now.. some is already out dated… so, off to Tzu Chi *or watever the name was* mummy send! jz donate it instead of dumping it all…

well.. i did a good deed yesterday… I help an aunty carry a bag of rice up to her door step… she was a widow, her husband died a few years ago but luckily she still have her son with her… i saw her carrying quite a few things *heavy things* so i jz carry the rice bag for her^^! she said its for the “baibai” ceremony for today… mummy guess that its her husband memorial day… anyway, i jz wanna help her…

sometimes…i felt stupid to have waited for a miss call…

it might not appear…

it may have been forgotten…

it may not hold the same level of importance to both person…

eventually, it might appears that im the only one waiting for it…

and so you have a new life that u no longer place ur priority on me…

= and so… im overeacting again =

crushing under the force…created by myself

today’s 11th August 2009… 1 month had passed n im still alive! *good news eih* well.. last Monday, Baby’s grandfather passed away… sadly my Baby wasnt able to come back, so I bring grandfather to him.. chelx cudnt reli attend the funeral cuz transportation problem; then after chelx pass the news to Alvin, he decided to attend the funeral n fetch me on the way…

it so happens that his uncle fr Taiwan has summer break n their family came to Malaysia… so Alvin stayed at their house located at Island Glades… we went b’worth together n chelx Skype-d with Baby using broadband! so in another way of saying, Baby attended the funeral also lor…

few days ago, chelx was sick… had headache and sorethroat… but with the help of the best medicine in the world — *not panadol alrite… nor aspirin (x.x)* WATER!!! chelx heal up almost in one night… then after that, the damn ulcer came… now having serious sore throat n is likely to starve to death cz chelx dun feel like swallowing food through that painful throat (TT)

anyway, good news is that Chelx might go to Hong Kong by the end of 2009 with the Foongs… might is cz its stil August n chelx dun have a passport (T_T) BUT… the BEST news is… Baby is coming home on 16th November!!! he’l have a quick stop *around 3-4 days* at Melbourne, shop around for my lovely present and birthday present den oni back to Malaysia! hehe~ i noe im champion in blackmailing ppl for present^^” but thats the fun of being a girl rite??? ahh.. no no.. thats the fun of being my Baby’s girl^^ haha~

chelx is looking for a job la.. seriously nid a job that’s like 9 to 5 + 5 or 5 and a half days type… n chelx has finally decided to stay in business field! KDU’s Keele University 3+0 Bachelor of Degree in Finance looks challenging and also Disted Stamford’s Staffordshire 3+0 Bachelor of Degree in International Business Management is in consideration too… but chelx aint gonna start anytime soon since stil in the progress of saving money n planning to go to Tasmania mid of next year… mayb after Baby’s back.. then he’l work n i’l study! good thinking!!!

so our days relies solely on Internet… we chat tru MSN, webcam tru Skype, emailed between Hotmail and Gmail… anyway, International call sucks!!! jz beginning of July, Chelx’s cellphone bill reach RM120+ *this includes June’s bill of RM60+* so… i went to settle my June bill by paying RM100 = balance shud be around RM 20+ la rite??? also means that my July bill almost RM 60+ at beginning of July…

it so happens that the day before yesterday, Chelx call her Baby for almost an hour… then… yesterday Maxis msg came in that my call charges are RM 180+ d… so Chelx went to settle payment *again* jz to find that the customer care consultant said my bill up to now is RM 210++… meaning =

June bill = RM 60+

June payment = RM 100

left = RM 30+

July 1st Bill = RM 60+

minus the exceeding previous payment = RM 20+

July 2nd Bill = RM 210+

overall July Bill up until now = RM 210 + RM 40 = RM 250

= CONFUSE???  ya me too… =

this is the 1st time Chelx call charges hits over RM 200~ but anyway, it worth since Chelx’s Baby isnt here now… she misses him so much…

but from this month on, gotta seriously save money (x.X) no more shopping spree, no mega sales n no junk food that makes u fat!!! Baby paid for the Internet usage at Christ College d! but the limit is like 1.5Gb per month… damn its lesser than my Maxis Broadband of 3Gb… this makes us so pressure when chatting (~_~)@

oh yea.. this week Chelx dint went over to Baby’s place er.. paiseh nia cz Chelx is like going there once a week.. so jz stop 1 week n concentrate on generating MONEY!!! well… lately have been spending my bittersweet time doing hair treatment! i had so much free time to do hair care rather than cleaning up that mess on my bed… LAZY-lah when u saw that pile of rubbish.. n i juz tot… i’l clean it up tomorrow/on my next off day/when im not tired/when too much of rubbish piled up there and the bed cudnt hold anymore…

ya lah… alot of excuses^^

I WANT MY BABY!!!!!!